I can give two fucks about it... I used to have such little self worth and low self esteem.. would get compliments left and right from people saying im attractive, cute if i modeled... I get shit tests from girls asking if im gay... girls rubbing up against me... grabbing my ass... smiling.. eye contact.. I get girls telling me im muscular..I take this all as them pitying me... i look identical to my siblings who I say are goodlooking people and get plenty of guys and girls... (brother and sister) ... im done lowering myself... how the fuck am I going to be successful in life if i am too scared to take risk...

fuck it from now on im holding eye contact with everyone.. I will speak my goddamn mind.. I can give two fucks what anyone thinks.. I am goodlooking end of story

edit: sorry for semi rant.. just been fed up