I think I have a problem Im not sure how to deal with. I'm good when my game is on but that in itself is the issue. Getting myself in a social mood is incredibly hard. If you can identify with these points you know where I'm coming from

  • Dreads when my uber driver wants to engage in endless small talk
  • I sometimes avoid leaving my apartment a few mins if I hear someone i'm going to have to small talk in the hallway.
  • If i'm out with friends and i see people I know I'm too lazy to say whats up to EVERYONE especially if i see them all the time already.
    • I never pick up my phone and let it go to voicemail.
  • I live alone
  • Aside from some temp work I'm unemployed and don't have a real routine.
  • smiling and saying hi energetically and enthusiastically is painful unless it's genuine
  • I find most people uninteresting.
  • several times I can't keep up with the drunk people in bars and by the time i get a little social. all the girls are way too drunk and being approached by the 1 am horde of drunk male zombies.

and the icing on the cake I have a serious resting bitch face that curses me. I actually analyzed my neutral expression on a website and this shit is true lol.

My confidence is ok. I'm above average looking. It's more of my introvert nature and the fact I hate talking to people. I have high expectation for conversation which isolates me from people and also prevents me from approaching as my #1 excuse forever has been "I don't know what to say and to keep things going"

If you guys are introverts how do you cope with it and become social? What can I do to improve my attitude and mood?