What’s up yall? Lately, ive found that writing on reddit is therapeutic so Im gonna rant a little but Im not bitching about my life... and if you can relate please comment!

Okay, Im 28, i live with my mom and Gma and im built like and offensive/ defensive lineman (6’4 300+). Over the past 5-6 years ive made decisions that put me in debt and kept me in the same situation. For the past 4 years ive dated the same girl. She’s loyal to me, a true friend, has loved and catered to me this whole time but Ive never been physically hot for her and she has clingy and stalker like ways that drive me insane (ive also messed with a few other girls so ill take the rap for some of her craziness). For the past year shes lived in another state down south and lately I have been craving something newer and hotter.

Ive come to the realization that the choices i have made in my life are the cause of my current situation and everything is connected. My often poor eating habits have lead to me being unhappy with me body(people also like to make comments as if im the fattest person theyve ever seen), my poor spending habits is the reason i have debt and still live at home and my insecurities from past situations have hindered my progress with everything in my life.

Should i just go munk mode and not worry about women? Ive been taking the steps to improve my situation by dieting, exercising and paying my debts, but i dont even feel worthy enough to pull any women. Im broke, I live at home and my girl moved away.

How can I take an extended break from women to get my life together without losing my mind?