sex drive can be a strong force in me sometimes.

sometimes i will go for a while without sex and settle on having sex with someone that I am not really attracted to. Someone with low self esteem, and not all that physically attractive to me either.

well, i have this conversation in my head and rationalize out why it is ok to do it. then i do it.

after the deed is done, i feel disgusted with myself. i think i feel disgusted with myself because of how low her self esteem is and how much i am using her. it makes me feel guilty and gross. so yea. i just wanted to share that with this community. settling for less in not worth it.