This is my situation: (this might come off as self-absorbed, which isn't my intention, but i'm trying to paint a good picture of my life pertaining to females) I have pretty much always been good looking (although on the short side).

A platonic female friend of mine made a comment to me, she said "how do you not have girls all over you, all the time?" It was a good question. People have said things like this before, based on my looks or whatever, saying 'oh you must have to fight the girls off' and whatnot, but for some reason this particular time she asked me, it really struck a chord inside me.

Although i'm not a virgin and have had a few gfs, I found that the girls i was attracting were attracted to me for alot of wrong reasons. For the most part, the girls i've been with have been the ones to approach me or seduce me, not the other way around. Turns out these girls tended to have very masculine personality traits, wanting to "wear the pants" so to say. I realized I had never successfully approached a girl and been the seducer myself, instead just waiting to find people who were attracted to me.

I started reading a lot of stuff, especially on seddit, and realized i had pretty severe approach anxiety. I can talk to guys and ugly girls just fine, but I get really nervous around hot girls or ones I like. When i start to think about approaching, I head trip myself to the point where I cant even do it.

My goal for the past few days has been to approach and initiate conversation with at least one new girl/woman per day. My first opportunity came on campus, I saw a really cute girl walking slowly in an open area. The voice in my head said that I needed to do this. The first few crucial seconds went by and i DIDNT do it. I just kept walking by. I just couldnt do it. I spent about the next 30 minutes beating myself up and feeling very shitty. A mixture of anger, dissapointment and depression with myself. I told myself that I would not let this happen again.

Later that day at the beach ( i surf), I was getting out of the water looking at all the people who were around. I noticed a girl sitting by herself, so i walked in that direction. I told myself I had to say something, anything, just to get the ball rolling. The sun was barely out and it wasn't that warm, so I walked to the side of her and just said "is there even enough sun out here to get a tan today?" she looked at me and just said "yes." I kind of froze up at this point because I didnt know what to say next so i said "ok cool" and kept walking. It was a small victory.

Today, again at the beach ( a different one from the day before), getting out of the water again I saw a woman (maybe a 7.5) sitting next to a surfboard. The board was a cool lime-green color. So I walked up and said "is that your board" she said "yes it is", I responded "Its got a cool color." She said thanks and I noticed the wax was all melting from sitting in the sun too long, so I pointed it out to her, so she flipped it over ( to shade the waxed region) and thanked me. I wanted to keep talking but kind of ran out of things to say. At least it was a little more convo than the sun tan conversation from the day before.

Feeling like a boss muthafuckin' p-i-m-p right now, haha jk. Its a humbling experience but i am thinking the rewards will be better than waiting around for another psycho chick to start liking me.

-Gulliver