I don't know about you other newbies, but my inner game tends to fluctuate. If I'm on a cold streak I feel like my inner game perpetually declines to the point where I'm telling myself I need to jump on a slump buster ASAP. Right now I'm single and I'm in a friends with benefits situation with a chick I used to work with. She was out of town this weekend and last night I went to a pool party. There were 4 girls and 4 guys there (including myself).

When I arrived at the party, everyone was out of the pool but they were all talking about getting back in. I drank my first beer and took a couple shots out of my buddy's flask, grabbed a second beer, changed into my trunks and hopped in the pool. It was me and the only girl I hadn't met yet. I wanted to introduce myself to her, but I didn't want to seem creepy and come off like I was in a rush to get in the pool to try and get with this girl. And I actually wasn't trying to do anything and since it was quite dark and I hadn't seen her close up, I could only tell she had an pretty attractive body. So just being myself and without thinking, I picked up a beach ball floating nearby and yelled, "dodgeball!" and hurled it at her face. She laughed and was like, "what the hell I don't even know you". I told her I didn't care and just laughed about it. Next thing you know as I turn around to grab my beer, I feel the ball hit the back of my head and turn around to see her laughing. I start splashing her and we get into a little splash fight until I yelled at her and jokingly called her a bitch for almost getting pool water in my beer. We got out and played some flip cup,she stood next to me and kept touching me and teasing me about how I sucked and was making our team lose. By the time we get back in the pool, I've got a terrific buzz going and start talking to this chick, can't even remember what we talked about now. We made out for a long time, and ended up crashing on a couch together. I didn't really try to hook up with her because I didn't have a condom and didn't even end up asking for her number. I was cool with it just being a fun night with a cool chick, and I guess there's a decent chance I'll see her again this summer.

Anyway, what this has to do with my inner game is that right now I have an abundance mentality and outcome independence to the point that I didn't even care if I might never see this chick again. If I wasn't currently hanging out with another girl, I probably would have tried a little too hard and things may have gone differently. I may have actually gotten her number, but it would only have been because I was dependent on that outcome due to not having the right mindset of abundance mentality. So basically what this means to me is that I have to bottle up this mindset and keep it. Think Im really close to a breakthrough, as my general goal is to be able to feel like I can attract women whenever and wherever and not have to worry about the next time I will get laid.