I've been a recluse throughout high school, to a painful degree. I lacked self esteem, I was really over weight (250-270)(5'10) and I was nerdy. I liked video games and I enjoyed anime and rarely made much social contact. I had a tight circle of friends, and I also did manage to speak with females but despite it all-- My self esteem and lack of confidence left me remaining as a recluse. It left me feeling I wasn't good enough for anything and the worse thing to top it off was I had an almost obsessive fear to rejection.

Rejection made me afraid to do anything really.

Out of high school, I made a vow to transform myself. I ate a bit better, and I began drinking alcohol and smoking weed. These aren't things that are neccisary by the way but these crutches surely helped me quite a bit, it helped me realize that hidden personality I had. The side of me that said 'fuck it' so many times and it truly broke me out of my shell. Countless bottles later I am now soon to be 22.

My progress since I was a high schooler isn't much.

I am 220-230 pounds, I still love video games and anime. I still have a tight knit circle of friends, yet I feel so much better and I have no fear when talking to new people. So what is the difference? I built up my confidence, I built up my self esteem. I've come to realize that it really does not matter to much about your weight, your looks, or anything of that nature. If you have a good personality, not a push over, a man who can get shit done when needed. You can really get anyone you want.

I have had more females then I though possible, I have had more situations where I could have gotten laid but my own consciousness was satisfied enough with the sheer thought of 'If I want it, I can get it'. All of this because I simply stopped caring about the possibility of rejection, you'd be surprised how many more 'yes's you will get then 'no's.

Ive slowed down a lot on drinking and all together stopped smoking, and I can honestly say I am happy. Now im working on my next step.

No Fap/No Porn-- To help curve my slight ED issues from my many years of porn watching (Since I was 7).