I wanted to write about my transformation, a change that took the better part of 8 years to complete, as a way to inspire anyone that feels hopeless.

In elementary, middle and the first 3/4 of high school i was never one of the cool kids. I was a band geek. in high school i was heavily into dark ages of camelot, a fairly popular mmorpg. I was a complete nerd, and not the good type. i would meet girls and just failllllll. i never understood why, because my brother is a natural and we look very similar, so i thought i would get by on my looks, but i realized later he was so successful because of more than just his looks.

in my junior year of high school, i started to get into live music after having played music for a while myself. i started to go to concerts. i would go to concerts a few cities away while i told my parents i was staying at a friends house. eventually, my senior year my friend and my little brother and i started a band. we played our first gig at a school event.

the next day, i noticed that people were looking at me different, talking to me different. I had finally gotten the acceptance that I had wanted for a really long time. Then i realized that i had earned this acceptance doing something which i have loved for a long time.

after this time, i had my first girlfriend in the summer between senior year and high school, but we had broken up not too long later.

In college, within my first few weeks at the dorms, i met a girl who i had a LJBF relationship with for about 6 months. she would ask me to do stuff for her, and i would do it, hoping one day i would get laid. she was never attracted to me is something ive come to realize. however, being friends with this girl had its benefits too. she had a huge social circle, and despite being buried in the friend zone, she always invited me to cool parties. in this way, this relationship changed my life, i got invited to tons of cool parties and built up a good social circle this way.

through her, i met a girl who i would have a LTR with for 3 years. I lost my virginity to this girl. during the LTR with this girl, i was in some other bands, and we got good gigs around town, the culmination of which was playing for some local festivals in front of 2,000 people or more.. in addition to our own gigs at some of the best local venues in town. During this time, i was never worried about getting laid because i was in an LTR, but was always surrounded by people. I developed my social skills quite a bit during this time.

LTR and i broke up when she went back to japan after she graduated, but i was still in the us. at first, i went only for j-girls because i was the most comfortable with them, but eventually branched out. I would get lucky on occasion, with 4 f-closes before i graduated. during this time, i wish i knew more about pua. I had a huuuuuuuuge social circle, friends would joke that i knew everyone in the university. people would come up to me at bars and ask " are you ___?". the first time this happened, i realized that i was legitimately popular and was a social hub for many people.

i had all of this social capital but didnt know what to do with it in terms of getting women. during this time, i was on a david deangelo mailing list, but didnt really believe anything he said. one day while at a show with friends, i tried one of the lines i got in this e-mail (now i just make my own material and use inner game.) on a girl and it had the exact reaction he said would come. this was a month before graduation and before i had moved to japan.

the moment i realized how much i had changed was at the following time.

I was visiting my parents las vegas, and a college roommate and co-worker whos family lived very far away came with me to go party in vegas. this was before i moved to japan. anyways, my parents didnt really know anything about how i had changed, and i didnt completely realize it myself until this moment. i was eating dinner with my parents and roommate when my mom commented that she was "worried about whether or not i would be able to make friends in japan". my roommate said this, "do you even know your son? he has more friends than anyone i know, and makes friends easier than anyone ive ever met."

my roommate never knew me in high school.

after arriving in japan, i was in paradise. japanese girls everywhere, and also foreigners i could connect with. i started to read more pua material, and after arriving here, i went gaming every single night. i opened 5-7 sets a night, and constantly thought about what i was doing right and wrong. what worked and didnt work. in june, i hit my stride (i think i posted about it here.) and have continued to go out every night.

rejection is nothing to me, i truly do not give a fuck about it.

TLDR; i went from DAoC playing MMO band geek to a guy that regularly gets laid and recently i have a girlfriend who i really like spending time with. she is fun, cool, and hot. if i can do it, anyone can. this is my story.