I have BDD issues, due to people said some nasty stuff about my face - side profile to be exact - when I was a young and insecure teenager.

I also suffered from being the point of attention, even when I was young and not even aware of my thoughts.

This set me behind in life, although I am slowly catching up. I found social job that I like (healthcare) and I am starting a company.

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Talking in general is an issue for me, since I go instantly "what will they think of me" reaction inside my mind. Slowly but steady I improve in social interactive situations I recently really struggled with.

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The next step is woman. I have had a unstable relationship once where I lost my virginity and never had sex more. I refused sex too because of my negative thoughts. So a few questions;

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- Does it work to small talk to random girls - from 1 and 2's going upwards, or are other tactics more efficient?

- Who is the real me? Sometimes when I look at mirrors or windows, I look really good, but sometimes like total shit. On video I look different, just maybe slightly above average.

- Are there any people in the Netherlands or Belgium who want to help me with cold approach?

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Thanks in advance.