Hey fellow redditors,

I need some help here. I fell in love with an older woman (me 22 college student, her 28 professional), and she was very controlling. She got pregnant on purpose, drank and smoked weed for the first half of the pregnancy, and was constantly trying to blackmail me into marriage. I had enough stood up for the child and myself, and she told me to kill myself. So I left and now she is going to try to refuse me being in this child's life. This has been about four months since this happened, and I have been getting girls phone numbers left and right. However, I haven't been able to convince myself to follow up on these encounters because I feel like if they know what is going on in my life they will run for the hills. Especially since the child is not born yet and things will only get worse before they get better. What I am wondering is if I am letting my own feelings about the situation get in the way, or am I justified in my line of thinking? Is what has happened to me and what I am going through going to have a negative effect on how women see me?

Thanks!