First time for me just writing my thoughts on the internet and letting strangers rip them to shreads like this but here goes:

Call me a Disney character but the thing that I think about the most can all be broken down to love. The reason why I go to the gym, browse /r/seduction, why I try to talk to everyone I can is because I'm just trying to find 'The one'. I find plenty of girls but I never find THE girl and I guess i'm just tired. I'm tired of just looking everywhere for this magical girl that I have a concept of in my head. I'm tired of trying to make myself this awesome guy that every girl falls head over heels with and every dude envys when I walk into a room cause at the end of the day I just keep moving my goalposts back and back until I reach this unreachable point of 'perfection' and I realized it's pointless.

It's funny, my philosophy on sex and relationships would make many people think it is in stark contrast to this. I've honestly never had a girlfriend before, and while I've fucked plenty of girls I've always viewed sex as the most natural thing a person can do and it isn't a big deal for me. Last night I was about to have sex with a girl when I only muttered two whole sentences to her (Acids a hell of a drug) but at the last minute I stopped myself because I was just done with the pointless sex that always ends with us waking up in the morning not caring about last night.

What I want is someone I can open up too, We can comfort eachother in our darkest secrets, our regrets, our saddest moments. Have a keen interest in our favorite things, our happiest moments, and our hobbies. Debate on different views with intrigue instead of disgust. Cry on each others shoulders, laugh in eachothers arms. Kiss with firey passion and fuck with delicate fury. Share our views on the world and the universe. Embarrass ourselves in front of other people. Experience the world one person at a time together.

The funny thing about this is that I'm almost certain that girl exists. In fact I'm sure there are multiple girls like that. I guess I believe 'The One' isn't just one person but in fact multiple people. It's just the person you fall head over heels with. In fact 'The One' may be living next door to me, or across the world. Could be both. Or maybe shes the girl whose been glancing over at me while I was sitting here writing this.

That's why I'm going to go talk to her.