[english is not my native language, sorry for possible typos]

OK, Seddit. Let's have a constructive discussion about oneitis. You know, I really don't get it, but this shit I'm going through is really bad for my mood, enthusiasm and life in total.

I (24 M here) dated a lot of girls in the past, but two months ago, I found THE ONE (19 F). Actually, she found me. She approached me the first time we met and back then she seemed very interested (her body language confirmed this the most). And my GOD, she's the perfect one. (yeah, yeah I know what you're gonna say) She has exactly same interests in music/fashion/lifestyle overal and the same mentality/thoughts as me, in various opinions and beliefs. She was also very interested in everything about me, and the thing she most noticed about me the first time she saw me was, as she said, I have that awesome swagger, chill/relax mentality. I totally liked her from the moment we met and damn it, I'm falling in love with her, which is bad for current situation I'm in now. Several days after we exchanged numbers, we arranged a date, it was friday night... and of course at the end of the evening we made up, I K-closed a her and everything seemed perfect and going in the right direction. She also seemed very interested in the begining. But the thing is, it didn't turn out to be like that. Most of the girls I had were all like exchanging text/fb messagess nearly all day. But not this one. So you know... I didn't want to appear too needy, but I was confused with this kind of behaviour. She was like that from the start. She later explains that she didn't had a LTR ever, and that her longest relationship was 2 months in total (yes, she's a virgin, but I don't care about that right now). And it was like the relationship we have now (seeing two/three times weekly, usually on fridays and saturdays in evening in parks or clubs). We talked about this once, and she said that she's not ready (and she never was ready with anyone else) for a REAL kind of relationship). It seems like she can never relax totally, at least it seems like that to me. So we're now in some kind of FWB relationship, where she kisses me in public places at clubs and we cuddle from time to time, but sometimes I also get kiss in the cheek way of greeting, like last night we met.. (wtf?!). Last friday she was all in "can't wait to see you" mood and that evening went perfect, but two days after (last night) it was a complete disaster. She flaked/was cold almost the whole time we were together. And it's not the first time she was like that, but last night that really made me upset(of course I acted like I don't care about that, in front of her). Somebody's probably gonna say now that these problems are noob issues, but the thing is I had a lot of girls before, but I never had such feelings like I have to this girl in particular. From the start of our "relationship" I had an abundance kinda mentality towards her. (look cool, act confident) also I followed almost every Seddit rule about body language, texting, kino (escalation), negs (which always work 100%) and all of those rules worked like a charm to other girls, and I had a lot of positive results, but not on this one.

She's hot, she's cold. She wants, she doesn't want. Push/pull. Push/pull, I'm in a circle now from which I don't know how to get out or keep it under control. In my opinion, she basically wants freedom, which is fine with me, because I'm not into LTR also currently, but I do want to deepen up this thing we have, somehow... I know that I'm gonna get downvoted because of this, but I really think that's almost impossible to ever find an another girl like she is, based on common mutual interests and beleifs we have. And of course not to mention her beauty...

And the thing is, I have other options (other girls to hook up with), and I use them from time to time... but I WANT this one. Last night before I walked her home, she said that we'll meet up this friday.. but to be honest, it's fucking monday and I can't stop thinking about her, but I said to myself I AM NOT GOING TO CALL HER these days, maybe not even on friday. Should I really do that? Should I back up totally and wait to se if she's going to call back? All this push/pull game is killing me emotionaly and I'm losing my frame because of it, and being with other girls doesn't help at all, 'cause I tried that... And the hardest feelings are coming out when I'm on work, like now. Damn it. Can't get her out of my head. That's why FWB sucks... in the end someone always falls in love. And this time, it's me. Damn.

Sedditors, help out!