Hello this post is really serious and i don't know if a community from a forum will enlighten me but i hope it will help me open my mind.

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So, i'm a "sexy guy", i have a really good face and a really good body (i do a lot of sports, gym, genetics...). This is not a subjective thing, as whenever i enter somewhere girls are looking at me, almost all the girls i do things with started by themselfs picking up with me, etc... When i enter a class room, when i walk in the university, at the parties (i party a lot) a loot of girls are looking at me all the time. If i'm in the street and i look a pretty girl she often feels flatted, smiles, etc, and many times it's them that look at me sometimes really strong if they are not ashamed to do. Appart from my body i have a "cool personality" which is natural and not acted at all, i dance a lot and well, i have a lot of friends, i go party all the time etc, i make music, circus, etc and i'm funny and smiling all the time, doing fun things, etc, i also have a lot of abilities, sports, studies, etc. For example 2 days ago i was at the bar with some friends and there was this girl i didnt know that was reaally hot and also with a really cute personality, and i knew i would get her and i did it without any hesitation, and it's really cool. So till there, everything is okay no? BUT this was a situation where we were just some people, i could be completely myself and know i could get her.

The thing is, in the parties, a looot of girls aproach me, look at me a lot, if i stay dancing in a spot in 5 min max i have at least 2-3 girls near me that want me to make the move. The thing is, as i know i'm hot, not by my opinion but by daybyday facts, opinions etc, objective things, i feel all the time that everybody is looking at me. I mean, not everybody but many girls at the same time. If i look somewhere in a party, for example if i turn around, theres always girls looking at me, and i can stay looking at some girl and she will too. For example yesterday i was in a party and 3-4 girls aproached me hardly directly, and at least hmmm 15 wanted me to make the move, they stay near me and aproach more and more, sometimes look at me from really near so i make the move. The thing is, as i feel so observed, i don't want to make the move. i always have this image that there are prettier girls that will think ahh look at the hot guy he's going with this stupid girl, or something like that. And mostly the girls that aproach are at leaaast 6-7/10 cause, if they are less they are scared to aproach, but the girls that are 9-10/10 dont aproach a lot but stay looking, want me to make the move obviously, etc. I would love to meet the girls alone somewhere, have a drink etc and i would be "the boss" but in the middle of so many people, that i know are looking at me, or even if somebody for some reason rejects me there will be a lot of other girls that want me that will "laugh at me".

It's complicated to explain. I have already 26 years, i've been partying like crazy, met a lot of girls, inside parties and also during the day of course, friends of friends, sometimes really really hot girls etc, and sometimes when i was younger not so hot. the thing is now, as i know i when i enter a party for example, i can have almost any girl that is available, and i'm confident by myself that i know this at 100%, i feel ashamed to make the move to a specific girl as i know others will be looking at me doing so, or accept a girl that's directly aproaching me, (for example a girl that comes in front of me and starts dancing towards me, smiling, i look appart and pass, walk 2 meters away...) and at the end i end alone!

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This thing is dead serious and it's something that's touching my happiness as i always have been a reaaally happy and smiling guy and this thing is like changing my inner state. It's something really simple but that i can't do! it's like somebody who has a mental disease of something really simple, and he can't do it cause for him it's really hard.

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For example, today is saturday, i'll go out with friends, crazy night, super cool etc and it will be the same! i will have the possibility to have a lot of girls buuuut i will refuse them, like i'm too hot for you. If i meet a beautiful girl during the dat it's not a problem for me at all, but i don't meet them a lot. last week the same, went out friday and i had a looot of opportunities, and at the last moment when i just have to make the move i think uff she's not so hot (even if she's a 8/10), and also i don't look around as i'm ashamed to be looking around for girls knowing that girls behind me or somewhere are looking at me. Last saturday, the same.

At the end i have a lot of fun at the parties cause i love music and hanging with friends, i have a lot of positive energy and i feel really good when theres music, i'm happy, drinking (yesterday i didnt drink as i didnt want but normally i do all the time), many times also taking drugs. But i'm starting to be fed up with this problem... I know my post doesnt describe my problem really clearly, i suppose because i don't understand the root of my problem so i can't describe it, but i's something really strong in my life! i'm losing my sexual ibterest over this, i just see the beauty of the girls and i looove it but it's not like i'm excited to fuck someone, as i was before. before i could fuck any girl, a 5-6/10, when i was 19-20, now i would never do it. And it's difficult cause i' the only one i know in my situation, sometimes i feel i'm like a girl in ghis sense as i have many partners to choose all the time, i know girls want me etc, and it changes everything with the situation of normal boys. its not common at all to be in my situation and in the last 1-2 years i think i got stuck with this and things are even getting worse. I hope in all this confusion of text, some interesting answers will happen. and sorry for my english! i'm from western europe, if that helps with anything. i've been thinking of writing this since a long time and now i've done it. tonight it's saturday and i will have a lot of fun of couse with music and friends, but the same will happen probably.

if it can help for your answer, you can ask me more precise questions and i answer more precusely as i have a lot of things to say, i could never stop writing (for example the ways the girls aproached me, just in the party of yesterday i have a lof of things to say about that or in tbe one of last saturday, last friday, and before etc). For example 2 cute girls see me, they start dancing near me, if i look at the hot of them she looks at me smiling, they chit chat about me, i don't make any move so they move just in front of me hoping i make the move, and at this point I KNOW there are other girls looking at me like always, or even guys that look because they want something with me or just heterosexual guys that want the girls and can't have them or something like that. So i don't make the move, i always think at the last moment ahh she's not so hot (as if other people would judge me, oh hes gone with only this girl), and other hotter girls are looking at me and people will laugh if i do something with her. Like if a super got girl refuses guys and then goes with a not super hot guy. And also all my friends i go with (i have a lot of friends and all of them are really close and sometimes i go with some, some with others, i go to another city to some friends house and we party together, etc...) well all of them also see me as the hot guy so i feel i also have to meet their standard, and for so i have to refuse all the girls except somebody that would be 10/10 and SHE aproaches me, everything less is something people will laugh about me (that's the impression i have, i suppose in reality people would never laugh or anything i know!) It's like i dont know, somebody with obsessive compulsive disorder, or attention deficit, something that in reality for others looks really easy to control, but for them its suuper hard.

thanks!! and sorry for the text structure, i wanted to write it correctly in the computer and ended doing it on the phone.