So without going into too much detail, I was abused quite a bit as a child. I spent a long time doing self-destructive shit. Anyway, I'm done with that now, and I'm in great shape. I make good money for my age. I'm in school. I work out. Everybody tells me I look good. I've really focused on the self-improvement aspect, and the inner game. It's been going well so far. I've gotten several girls numbers, and even asked a couple out. No bites yet, but I'm optimistic. Anyway I'm posting here because touch is something that I really really struggle with. I get seriously uncomfortable with handshakes, hugs, even a light touch on the shoulder or something. Even if I brace for it It still feels extremely intrusive. And I NEVER initiate touch. I know touch/kino is a vital part of the process, but Its an extremely daunting thing for me. I understand that going on a a date and being unable to touch her out of fear will get me absolutely nowhere, but its not like I can exactly bring up my situation. Its definitely not something that people want to talk about during the "getting to know you" phase. I know the best advice is therapy, but that just isn't really an option for me right now. I really wish I could, but my insurance changed and I just can't afford it. I guess I'm just looking for support and wondering if anyone here (without prying into your past) has been through something similar, and been able to breach this barrier. Thanks