Hello guys I have been following seddit for quite some time.Last year i was your average 20 year old virgin. I have always looked pretty decent I think , I also hit the gym pretty seriously.So this summer i went to USA to work and finally lost my virginity and gained some confidence, I had an affair/relationship with one girl for a couple of months, we had to end it because she was going to her come country and after that I kinda slept with this other chick i was friends with.

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So before 2 months I came back home (I still have 2 years in University),as soon as I come back I already started missing the USA or to be more specific the life I had,I worked as a server but to be honest I was happy with everything I had. Right now I m studying to be a Programmer but I dont really know if I will enjoy that.

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And now to get to the real part of my rant.So I met this girl 1 month ago we hit it off pretty good from the first date,now I have had some first dates but I dont think I have ever felt so good and myself like a felt with this girl on a first date.Being still pretty inexperienced with dating and intimacy I didnt kiss her , but she kissed me on our third date at my place(we cooked burgers and watched a shitty horror movie :D).I know that leaving it for her to kiss me was a mistake on my part but she was actually pretty cool about it, she even said to me lets make out some more and I ll get going.Everything was going pretty good for the next days.The only problem is that I could only see her once a week on the Saturdays since she works during days.But last week I had this trip planned with my budy, so while we were on the trip I didnt text her,i texted her to check if she was free the coming Sunday instead because thats when i was coming home.She said she was sick so i didnt think much about it and left it there.

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Now everything I have read and experienced led me to believe that i should not pressure her,that just because we kissed we are not in a relationship so I decided not to text her that much before I see what happens on the next date and maybe we have the talk (about being exclusive and in a relationship). The thing is , I f-d up BIG TIME. Now she is older than me so today when I text her she is being all cool,but when i decide to ask her out for this Saturday, she tells me:

""No you cant text me Friday to Friday only when you want to go out"

(That is actually not correct since i texted her a couple of times and one of them she was reading a book,and the other she was working late so she responded when i was already in bed.)

And she theen proceeds to tell me how she wants somebody serious by her side, that she already knows how our story ends and she doesnt have time to play games?????

I have been feeling like shit the whole day.Mind you guys,I really consider myself to be pretty good at taking hints when something is not going well and if a girl likes me.And I can tell you that this girl definitely liked me and I dont know how its possible for her to go this cold in one week just because I didnt text her that much??It sucks because I really thought she might be the girl to get me out of my shell and maybe finally have a relationship in my home country.

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I actually feel like I am starting to loose my mind I am 21 and everytime i meet a girl something happens and we eventually have to break it up.Sometimes its me,sometimes her,sometimes its something completely different.I just want to finally have a meaningful relationship with someone....

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Thanks for everybody that decided to read this,and sorry for any mistakes,English is not my native language.

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