I'm mostly posting this just so I have a record of how things change for myself.

I had a friend over, who I hadn't seen in person in a few years. At one point years ago I had a crush on her, but it's been some time., we cooked a meal, then hung out in my room, talked, she laughed a bunch, then I felt pretty timid at what to do next, I asked her what she wanted to do, she said we could play a game, I suggested Go since I knew how to do that. After that I was even more shy and conversation seemed to get more difficult (we both seemed to be pretty self repressive/shy) until she left.