Hey Seddit, I hope you are doing fine.

I have been monitoring this place for a while and seeing comments and help of others. I am 20 and have never been in a relationship before. The closest I have gotten to a woman was a plain kiss, no tongue involved (Virgin). Typing this out as we speak, feels awkward and unnatural. I am not used to giving this information out, as it is easy to lie to everyone, but I soon started believing this myself. I am awkward around females and their presence, and mostly, I regard them as a tier above me, and I have been fighting for their approval my whole life, to the point of destroying tons of relationships, also shivering and cringing in awkwardness, when I recall some shit that I have done, which I cannot undo, and neither very much learn from them.

What this post was about, was simply to embark a beginning. I will begin in a way, to finally get something together, and maybe having this posted online, with literally the whole internet able to reply and check, I will finally be able to develop this will that was always inside me. I am hoping for this becoming public to finally allow me one thing specifically, to keep hunting this gosh-darn change.

I will be starting the journey of MPUA Styles, with the Style Life Challengem using this medium as my daily briefings. I shall also keep an online diary, and mood journal, which will not be made public, I merely added this information to show I will be life monitoring everything. I shall reach all limits which are humanely possible in order to overcome all social fears and this idea of seeking female validation. I have been enough a slave of my own fears. I do not know whether posting these daily briefings is in any way allowed by the community rules, but I never received a message from any of the mods in any regard (another account), whether this can be done or not. I am hoping deeply, that were I in need of help in how to proceed, I will receive it, and the same is as well true in the opposite direction. I want to finally change, as I am done looking at this awkward Chump in the mirror. I hope this journey inspires people to know you are never to late to change, I want to become a player, and I hope with your help I can reach what I believe is worth for me! Thank you!