Some background about me: 19M, Asian, Introvert, have received a lot of comments throughout my life about my awkwardness (I try to own that shit), and have anxiety about my chubbiness, crooked teeth, and nose.

During the first week of 2018, I decided to swipe on Tinder and surprisingly got some matches. I messaged all of them and had lined up dates with of them. 1 of them was down, but had to reschedule and the other 2 were down to meetup the same week. The other two dates were back to back; one on Wednesday and the next on Thursday. Honestly, that was hella tiring.

Ima skip straight to the details of the two dates

Girl 1: Cute Filipina that I had quite a lot in common with in terms of background and lifestyle. Went to grab some boba at a chill spot and then proceeded to go to the beach afterwards. I honestly barely did kino and took a passive approach while we were walking around the beach by asking her if she needed a hand warmer. Without hesitation, she was holding my hand for the whole beach walk. She asked me to check if her eyebrow makeup was okay and leaned in towards me(stupid me didn't take the chance for a kiss). I told her I can cook some bomb ass eggrolls and she was down to try it at my house. We just went straight to my room and talked. At one point, she brought up that she doesn't do hookups and apologized about it. It got quiet after that and I ended up just dropping her off after 5 minutes of silence. We hug and say our goodbyes.

Girl 2: Cute Vietnamese girl that gave me some K-Drama vibes with her outfit. I picked her up and we went to grab some boba at one of my go to spots. Overall, she was very chill and it was great to see how much we had in common as well since we both were the quiet, introverted types. We share our past Tinder stories and make a lot of inside jokes about them during the date. After drinking boba, I told her we should hit up the beach (I swear my dates sound like routines with getting boba then going to the beach). We walk around the beach and I keep hesitating whether or not I should hold her hand. At one point I just straight up say let's hold hands. She did it without hesitation and we walked through the whole beach holding hands. So now, we are leaving and I have to drop her off home. After talking and stuff, we make it back to her house. As we are saying our goodbyes, I tell her that I'd like to kiss her because I thought the date went really well and we probably wouldn't see each other again. This was my second kiss and she even said it was awkward, but funny for the both of us. We are still talking today, but we're probably just gonna be buddies.

Tldr; Asian 19M trying to get over the anxiety of being awkward, being chubby, and having crooked teeth goes on 2 Tinder dates. Surprisingly, he was doing well in connecting and talking with the girls, but could still improve on conversation skills and not being awkward. Date 1 was full of hesitation and no close while Date 2 was little hesitation and a kiss close. PS, boba dates are the way to go!

Overall, I'd like to say thank you to Seddit for all the helpful advice and my friends that took my Tinder pictures as well as spied on my dates. I always thought I was ugly because of my crooked teeth and face, but slowly accepting myself has helped a lot and I like to think I'm handsome and the prize for someone out there. I really wish all of you people out there good luck on your journeys because we got a big year ahead of us y'all!