Aight guys, lemme tell you a bit about myself. I've been around this community for a while now, pretty much since my junior year of high school four years ago. I'm an asian kid that girls generally find attractive. Thank you, God. In hindsight, girls flirted with me in middle school. The hot, "popular" ones. I was just too dumb to recognize it.

In high school, that shit stopped quick cause: I've always been the most self-loathing motherfucker; I've always been a little wacky; and I get really excited about things. Succinctly, I am an introspective extrovert. In my youth (and yeah at 21 I'm still young as fuck), my peers viewed me as a weird spectacle, and I grew up being extremely self-conscious about it. Perversely, because I think waay too much about social situations and how people perceive me, I turned myself into an introvert. Pretty much it's cause whenever something went wrong socially, I was way too hard on myself. This fucked up my mentality of who I am as a person and my confidence in myself. If I had to say why this is, I was/am a naive person. &, as much as I love them, my parents fucked up raising me.

These last four years, I've gained the confidence to accept myself for who I am. I still have my fair share of issues, yes, but as a pretty genuine person, I'm at a point in my life where I can strike up a conversation with anyone and get to know people on an intimate level fairly quickly. I guess it's cause I've learned all people are generally the same. We're all human.

I have a few glaring problems, though. I'm not the best at small talk, telling a story, and having a good time within myself. I've always been about spirituality and God and the collective consciousness and whatnot, so all my conversations seem to revert to that shit and social relationships between people. In terms of having fun, I've always been more about the group than about me, the one who sacrifices himself for the betterment of the group. I'm getting better at exerting myself every day.

In terms of seduction, I've always thought I could get any girl. I mean my friends were always really attractive, guys and girls. Plus, as human beings, we all have the potential, right guys? I grew up in a world of boundaries, however, and I never learned to escalate physically.

So a little more about myself then: a) I've never kissed a girl. b) I've never had sex. c) Never really had a girl that was a platonic friend. d) I was a chronic masturbator and grew up objectifying women.

I've been able to overcome c&d, now. a&b I don't really care to much anymore, cause in my "spiritual journey" or whatever you wanna call that shit, I've come to understand that sex is a sacred act that has dire consequences, namely children. Plus, I feel that once you've had sex with a girl, it's hard to progress the relationship much further. I'm the kinda guy that would want to have the relationship first, then sex. Call me a puss, whateves. This is who I am.

However, I still wanna be that guy who can pull anyone. I understand that by taking this road, I'm regrettably going to have more sex than I want. If that's a thing. But I'm serious, that's me being that guy who tries to pleases others. Literally, as fucked up as this sounds, it's gonna be cause she wants it, and me trying to please her. I mean, that's how I see it at this point. It's not so clear how I'll change with this lifestyle of sure debauchery.

Oh yeah, before I forget, there's that bias against "white knights" here. Fuck that noise. What's the point of saying fuck you idiots and the way you view life, especially when you're the one being dissolute. It's pretty much like r/atheism bashing on christians. Where does it get us? The point of r/seduction is to help each other overcome our selves, right? In any case, I'm looking forward to going through with this and making new friends along the way. Your support would be much appreciated.

tldr:Hi, I'm sup_breeh, and I'm a afc.