Okay so taking in everyone's advice, I remembered why I got into pick up in the first place. Call it cope but I've actually never been all that fussed about actually doing the deed. What motivated me was freeing myself from my crippling social anxiety.

I set out to approach 25 girls and in the end my total was 1/25 💀. It's a lot easier said than done. Saying "I'm expecting rejections" doesn't make the task any less daunting.

For what it's worth I actually had a pretty good night, I just didn't do what I set out to. As it turns out I have a rather extensive social circle at the place. I met several girls I met prior and/or warm approaches with girls my friends knew but I didn't do any flirting.

I did however "back a whine" as the kids say. I believe that's the first time I ever grinded on a girl 🤔, might not be, wait actually it isn't 😂. Nevertheless it's not a common occurence for me. I should've shot more of a shot with the girl in question as she was the one who actually initiated that. I'm a rather timid character.

The music was good which I think was the driving factor to me having a good time. I was also taken in by 1 group of friends and they actually stay in the apartment across from me. Had a great time with them, and we can hopefully roll out together again some time but I'm not holding my breath.

The 1/25 figure is basically any approach that would take guts. I socialised to the point at which I am capable of but it's been a long while since I last pushed my boundaries. I'm doing what I can as opposed to learning how to do what I can't.

Even so the step that I asked of myself was too big. Because I have 3 months left I was hoping to treat my time here as a free hit. In truth I should probably grow in increments and be patient. Instead of mass approaching like I wanted to, I think I'll just work on being more flirtatious. I have a flirtatious switch that I can turn on and should try do so more often.

In conclusion trying to get 25 "rejections" to learn to better cope with internal fears is just unnecessarily torturous. I'd be better off just trying to be more flirtatious with the interactions I often get. New target unlocked.