Ok so for starters im 17 and like 6'1/david laid bodybuilder type body with a lots of thousands of followers on IG, good fashion sense/drip...BASICALLLY on the outside/first impression i have everything...but i legit cant pull/or talk to women. Like deadass i can talk to random dudes on the street/school/gym but i just cant talk to women. Im very akward around them and like just straight up cant talk or if i do i usually dont know how to escale. Like this girl yestery held me hand gave me a hug and i was still questioning weather or not to go in for a kiss(she did first)..or that one time i was literry in a GIRLS BED and she still called me out for how akward and like the way i acted. Ive hooked up with 3 girls and all of them straight told me how akward i was etc. I might have adhd/or a bit of tism but i lowkey dont know on first impression everyone assumes i fuck bitches and stuff. My reputation in school is also fucked cause i say alot of stupid shit/clown around and dont act neurotypical(constantly have to move around and fidget or say something). i feel like a lost cause as i see dudes my age who are shorter uglier and fat/skinny get with more girls/or are popular and its making me go insane...pls help broskies. A thing to note is that i grew up unattractive/fat and also dealt with not really having many friends or people/family/fatherfigure to talk to during my childhood and also consuming OD blackpill stuff..which may have contribued to the way i am now. I also recently have had anxiety/panic attacks as well with no help from my therpaist. People also say i act like a NPC and like idk i feel like deep down i have within me the layed back fuckboy nonchalat type personaity but i just cant seem to break out of this fucking state. I also live in NY if that helps..what do i do 😭. if u also want to know how i look like search up saafir everyone in my comments tells me i look like him.