Sometimes I wake up and I feel frustrated as shit. It's like, the channel is growing slowly and the podcast following, but nothing hinting critical mass anytime soon.

Yeah but what makes you feel entitled to that? You think you special?

Nah I didn't say that. But you know what yeah, I'm a fucking animal. But I've been slipping up..

Maybe you need to realize that in patience success will come.

I know that shit. But not everything happens the way it should on paper. I know I'm progressing and growing, I can feel it. But being 26 I feel like the clock has officially started on my head. A 23 yr old building his dream is cute, a 30 yr old not so much. Not that it's about that, but I can just feel an unconscious itch to excel. Like I can't let the 12 yr old version of me down that thought I had all the potential in the world.

Maybe you need to take a step back and look at perspective. Despite the loss of your pops, you have your mom, your sister, your best homie, family and even the animals. There will be a point in your life where even if you were successful alone in a mansion, you'd think back to this time... And realize it was the greatest time in your life. A special moment to be cherished. You would probably envy it. Fool.

I feel that. I know in my heart you right. There's this balance I'm trying to maintain of building for the future, and yet not missing out on the present.

So is everyone else mothafucka. Again, you think you special man?

IITE iite man chill chill I get that. I'm just saying. Whats frustrating is I never seem to maintain a steady upstream. I have spikes and lows in my habits. And naturally I know this shit is inevitablle, but there has to be a way to steadily maintain those good habits while building up naturally everything; and not missing out on enjoying experiences with loved ones now.

You got to fight. Every single day.

Wow, that's it? Why the fuck you here again bruh?

Listen man I'm your conscious not God himself. Fuck you man. I'm giving you everything I got. So just...

..Give it everything I got.

Alright.

Let's suit up. One more time ☝

💯 LAST NOTE: I have a channel & podcast on dating/self improvement and I wanted to give an insight on the inner dialogue that goes on in my head in a creative kind of way. I was thinking about having these mental notes as a morning kind of motivational series. We all tend to have these mental battles and while the journey to improve with women is a finished one for me... I'm at the beginning of another one in building this and I'm sure to a degree; all of us are starting our own journey.

Every day is a fight and every night we go back to our corner to rest.

But when that bell rings, we have to be the first one out there. To show the world we're just getting warmed up. 👊