17f Im not sure how such abstract thing is supposed to feel like.Perhaps growing up i dont get it much from family but often being neglected.so now im struggling in what is love,am i lovable,how to receive and give love to others. Ive been hving troubles falling asleep,crying and reflecting a lot these nights.Could anyone share some thoughts on this topic plz? I realized myself hooking up with random people to make up the desire to be loved.But often time i got disrespected,used,hurt,i dunno what i can do to change this ANYMORE!!!

Why,why other girls are being seen as attractive while im just a sex tool to him? Am i not good enough