Hi there.

Vancouver, B.C. Canada

Quick background, been unhappy for years. Multiple issues, no intimacy, Hoarding, etc. etc. I did something online, not proud of, it was wrong, was just nice to feel 'something' for that minute, so to speak. We are in Greater Vancouver B.C. Now it blew up when she found out about the online stuff.... screaming divorce. A few days later, it seemed we reconciled. So I stopped with the lawyer hunt. She was insistant on not doing it amicably and I am going to be sorry.
Anyways, I put a gps on the car, the one she drives, it is in my name, because stuff she was saying wasn't adding up. Have caught her in multiple lies, and she doesn't know I have, because I haven't said anything.... yet (yes, I believe she is cheating, have for a long time) Well today was another lie. Called her because she said she was going shopping. Told me she was at Walmart, when she was no where near Walmart, but was parked directly in front of the Family Justice center for about an hour. So I am assuming she is being sneaky as well and going to surprise me with a divorce. Honestly I want divorce, just would like it done amicably.
I know that B.C. is no fault divorce, split assets down the middle. She makes much more than I do. House was mine, but whatever. Our 15 year old dependant, and her 20 year old son still at home.
I am also injured, bad concussion and been off work since May. My short term memory is really bad. I'm a mess right now because of it and the headaches and more. I'm not with it most of the time.
Well, I have no Idea what to do right now, do I wait to get served? Do I get a lawyer now? do I go to the Family Justice center? what do I do?
please advise.