20-year-old guy speaking with a cool story. I live in the Netherland and my parents are from Maroc.

It all started with a single question that popped up, how can I get a girlfriend at the age of 17. I wanted to experience what it's like to be with a woman(so sad but true). Thanks to all those roman movies and animes I wanted to know how it's like to be with a girlfriend. I was in a nice guy state of mind so I was ready to pay for a woman who wouldn't give me anything in return. I thought giving gifts was the way to go and thank god that I didn't have a girlfriend at that time. I'm so grateful.

I didn't have any job so what does it matter they wouldn't want me anyway. I was always thinking rational. I knew emotions are my weakness but sometimes emotions override your logical decisions. At that time before the question popped up, I heard a line from some conspiracy video I watched where a guy said knowledge is power. I took that to my heart's core. that knowledge is indeed power. How do I find knowledge was the question afterwards.

At some point when I looked at what was available to me so I can get knowledge. There is, fortunately, google. I can ask anything I want and I can find answers. I also knew that not every answer is the right answer so I have to think and argue about the possibilities. Thanks to conspiracy theories I was in that state of mind. Another thought was that people seemed to hate players.(a man with easy access to females) but if players get all the hot babes then why not become one I thought. Who cares I want to become a player. It was an ideal I wanted to become.

Back to the question how do I get a girlfriend? I searched on google "how to get a girlfriend torrent". I was a pirate and I still am a pirate today. feels good to be a pirate. I found a .pdf book called how to get laid and I said I'm going to read it if I have a job. Because I thought a man should pay for a date and I wanted to buy some nice clothes to impress women. Because I didn't have any money I thought I can better find work then figure out how to get a girlfriend. So first get a job.

After getting a job at a grocery store(age 18) I read the book. I believed that a truth will be mixed with lies so I was prepared for that. I was looking for that one perfect answer. and after time passed by while gaining information about pua I realised that there is a mountain including its surface beneath to understand. I also found out some pua videos and it inspired me. The videos gave me hope. The core thing I learned was that you have to take action if you want something.

I was into pua and was asking friends at that time if they want to join me. The first approach was the hardest. It was fighting with my inner self to go and act. My friend said don't do it but I still did. Because I have to take the first step if I want to walk 1000 miles. I failed of course but at least the girls were open to talking. I kept failing and fast forward, I was doing indirect pick up lines. do you know how late it is, asking for directions etc? I became the guy who was approaching random girls on the street and kept failing all the time. I thought it has to succeed one time.

At some point, I realized if I could get any woman I want, what is the point in marriage? if you can have a single life as a king. Doing whatever the fuck you want, play games, no complaining bitch with you every day, have sex with whoever you choose to without having to be restricted to one female, having your own fucking house for yourself. Then what is the point in marriage except having kids? Above that females who got married became fat. I have family members to prove my case. Like hell I want that.

Before I knew MGTOW(age 19) I already knew in my mind that a woman will become less beautiful as they age while I am improving every single day. I thought my worst case scenario would be that I would only fuck prostitutes if I could never get laid and pua would have failed for me. I don't like paying for women and this is one of the first things I learned from pua. A relationship should be 50/50. And who the fuck wants to sacrifice two hours of work just so you have a slight chance to fuck her. Not worth it. That is one of the best things I learned. I'm so happy that I could think rational.

Using my thinking ability and considering that the only 2 options are getting married or not. not being married has much more benefits than being married. But why gets everyone married. I wanted to find other points of views and I was open for everything. But don't tell me it's the right thing to do or it's about love bullshit. I wanted a logical/rational opinion why marriage is a good choice. People I asked said to me it's the right thing to do or it is about love. Marriage is about love. Well, my analyses says that being unmarried is a far better option than being married.

The smart guys are on the internet so I searched on youtube why to get married. Nothing... No logical based answer whatsoever. I searched then why to not get married and boom. I found a video that's called 60 something reasons why to not get married. I was happy that other people had the same thoughts as me. marriage is a bad deal. After watching video after video. When I was watching another video for instance music, Youtube recommendation list would suggest sandman/MGTOW videos. after watching sandman videos I wanted to know what the meaning of MGTOW is. Because the name of sandman's videos always ended with #MGTOW. My English wasn't very good at that moment but at least I could understand the message.

I was trying to figure out what MGTOW was. I watched a lot of MGTOW videos because the information they gave me was true. MGTOW has opened my eyes and told me te truth flat out straight. What the bullshit is around us and how women really are instead of that society says they are like princesses that can do no wrong. I had to rewire myself. And I didn't want to believe it but I never rejected the truth. I believe in aliens so I might also believe that a woman only loves resources.

Fast forward at the age of 20 while still doing pickup and having learned the core of MGTOW I realised that trying to pick up women is a waste of time because this time could be used to be better in a skill or become more successful in life. Trying to approach them felt like it wasn't worth it. Always when I was in a club I was thinking my time could be spent so much better instead of running after women trying to get laid. Don't forget their behaviours shit test bullshits etc.

The good thing I got from pua is that I got confidence out of it. But gaining a skill is much more worth than pickup. If you have a good job you can just fuck prostitutes so fuck pua bullshit. I'm not at the stage where I can afford a hooker without having a loss of money. I can do it but that money for me right now has more value for other things. I should get to a point where I have enough money to provide for myself and if I want I can afford a hooker. The average couple has sex 2/3 times a week so if I fuck three different women a week if I want to I can do it(thx turd flinging monkey) because I will be single. Thank MGTOW. what is better, having sex with the same fat female you married to or fuck two to three different hot models every week and still financially you would lose less than being with a wife.

After thinking about this I thought marriage/committing is just not a good deal. Having seen the divorce rates and the financial rapes have strengthened my resolve.

A woman ain't gonna put bread on the table. They are only sex worth in my eyes. And the so-called lovely dovely couple dream I had has been destroyed. Even then she would still hit the wall so fuck that shit.

Finally, I realised what is important and I skipped pua altogether. I must be able to provide for myself to have a good life. I can have that player dream by just fucking women for free or just pay so they can leave after you are done with them. But I'm not the clown running after women anymore even when my brain gives me chemical reactions that the woman in front of me is hot. Fuck that shit. Ain't worth the effort. And my chance is lower than 0.1% even though I am a decent looking guy and that's reality and I have accepted it(700 approaches).

for now, I stick with porn and my education. Right now I want to skip women altogether but that's hard to do. It's going against your natural flow.

In the end, I calculated and there are two choices. Try your hardest to do pickup with no guarantee of getting laid. Or become financially strong. The decision is MGTOW for the win. Fuck wasting my time getting laid.

tl dr; sorry that it's a long story. it's my story so you are free to read it or not. May you have the best life possible.