Hi guys, I'm writing this to let you know of the last "relationship" before going full MGTOW.

I consider going MGTOW way before, but I was a beta cuck and I kept thinking I just didn't met the one. I was wrong, there is no one.

I thought back then that the problem of not getting gfs was fully on me. I was fat, I'm ugly and girls always took advantage on me and then discard me after. The truth is I'm not that ugly, just normal, and the fat thing I took care of it with gym training and diet.

When I stopped being fat and started to be fit, a woman show interest in me. I was 32, 6" tall and fit but still with a bit of belly but mostly fit. She was 49, 4" feet short, and she was as fat as a whale. Seriously, I am not joking. She was so fat I even felt shame. But it was years without a pussy so I went for it and nailed her.

She kept calling me and having sex with me. She was really ugly too, typical ugly fat Scottish redneck from the highlands. She was so disgusting I needed to drink at least 1 bottle of vodka just to be with her, no joking here.

She started saying she loved me, and i totally felt for it. I tried to convince myself than looks age or weight werent that important at all, that all you need is someone who loves you, and I had found it, even if she was old, fat and ugle, she loved me so thats all I could ask for. I became her boyfriend.

We lasted 6 weeks. During this time, she made me meet her family, a bunch of NEDs (the UK version of a hillbily for you Americans) who could not believe their eyes each time they saw me, They were puzzled, I don't blame them, trying to figure out what on earth I was doing with her.

During this time, she used me as a choffeur, made me paid dinners and lunches everywhere, and the sex wasnt that good, she didnt suck it anymore (and if I said it, she would suck for 10seconds and then say "thats it"), and I was deeply disgusted by her body face and smell I had to drink lots of vodka. Each time I was with her I needed minimum 70cl of vodka. 1 Liter if I was gonna stay overnight. This is no joke, it was the only way I could stomach her for sex, I nearly turned into an alcoholic due to this.

If being the boyfriend of such abomination, and on top of that being used to pay for her shit, drive her around and having to endure their neddy family wasnt enough, I still convinced myself to keep being with her, despite not being happy at all.

One day, however, she told me she was going to work in a text. Text me later I replied. She never came back. I became worried and send more text, called her, but no one answered, I even thought that she may have an accident or something and I went really worried for this, I spent several days worried as fuck, until I realized all my text where left as read. She was online, so not dead, just ghosting me.

I was used by this fat old ugly disgusting woman for money, companionship and driving her around, I put up with it because she said she loved me, and in the end she just disappeared. I was officially ghosted. When she stopped needing me, I was discarded like trash, not even a goodbye or a go fuck yourself, just nothing, only emptiness. One of the reasons I accepted that fat ugly being as girlfriend was because I though such and ugly specimen would not let me go. I was wrong.

Dont be like me. It doesnt matter if she is old, fat and ugly. She will still think she is awesome, and when she no longer needs you, she will dump you like she was a MISS.

So, if you are going to fall as low as I did, at least go for someone who you can stomach sober.

I got over this, I went back to the Gym, I left alcohol (+4 weeks sober!) and went full MGTOW.

So please make fun of me, learn from my mistakes, and if you see me one day in the street with a fat monster... please KILL ME