Recently my soon to be ex-wife asked me why I always had trouble communicating with her. I told her "Because my opinions, needs, and desires are not important to you so I stopped including you long ago". If I were to call her out on something, she'd gaslight me. I could have a great idea and it would have been made aware to me that it is utter shit immediately. Even just telling her stories about my day at work were something for her to pick errors out of. So I just stopped.

I told her you think my ideas are stupid just for the sake of being a bitch and her reply? "Well yeah, that's because you always want to do something stupid like go camping in the woods for peace of mind or some retarded shit like that."

Now this got me thinking, I absolutely love being in the wilderness. Theoretically speaking, if things got so bad post-divorce that my quality of life may as well be sticking a gun in my mouth and pulling the trigger for comfort, could I run away instead? Could I get my shit together and live self sufficiently in the wild indefinitely or would the law catch up to me eventually. Because all I read about are divorce horror stories and fuck that, also fuck killing yourself. I would never kill myself to end suffering but living in the wilderness is something I could totally do.