Last night I had a short dream. I dreamt I was in bed with this beautiful young blonde woman who I was deeply in love with. We were just kissing. I felt so happy, relaxed and at peace. Even know when I think about it I feel relaxed and a part of my soul satisfied. This is the best feeling I ever had. The problem is that I need to find a way to recreate that feeling without women because I know how risky it is to marry these days. Anything helps.