Looking for work. Still getting myself in situations where I borrow money from my mom. I have my own place and pay my own bills except when I need help. The most responsible I've ever been in my life. I live in an apartment. I want to get a house. I'm looking for higher paying work to be more financially stable and pursue the costlier goals of mine. Still feeling kinda bummed. I have goals and dreams and I'm pretty well off. I mean I'm not addicted to drugs or anything have a good head on my shoulders. Get lonely at times but yeah. Anyway I'm starting to feel old. 35 is young but it's old. I'm experiencing more people in their 20s thinking damn that was a long time ago and seeing how they view me as old. Not that I necessarily feel old myself, I'm young at heart. Maybe not as energetic. Part of me feels like a scrub because I've made so many mistakes and could have been at a much higher place currently. I just have such a carefree, go with the wind, take a risk kind of lifestyle attitude. Blah anyway since I'm focused on getting a job and just getting my shit together, I'll be enjoying time with my mom watching movies and hockey and eating pizza and cake or something. Just crazy how the years pass by. This last year has been total shit in the USA. Heres to hoping things change in major good ways by the time I'm 35 next year.