I'll begin is high school. But before I do I'd like to tell you about the psychological effects of my early life. My sister really fucked me up in life. Would always act as a second mother. Because I didn't have a father (Deceased Crack Head). She would always be little me and completely destroyed my self confidence at an early age. I am Dyslectic and was treated for ADD before HS.

Now on to HS: I finally found my calling with the stoner crowd. I started to not really give a shit about school work and dropped out twice. Worked full time yada yada. Anyways on to the good stuff. So women... ya that's right I had no idea what I was doing. Like most men at that age. So what did I do? Absolutely nothing. I did this because of the following reasons: The fear of rejection, I felt intimidated by women and a lack of confidence in almost all areas of my life.

On to the women. I have only fell in love with two women in my life. To protect the innocent lets call the first one (Jill) and the second one (Jane). First Jill drop dead 8/10. I always made her laugh and smile in class. Always trying to impress her and fool around with everyone (Class clown). This was the only thing I could really do with the level of confidence I had at the time. She even asked my sister if I liked her "Daww how cute". But that's it that's as far as it went. Exact same thing with Jane. Different school but that's besides the point. I knew that I was a piece of shit at the time: Burning all the time, poor grades and no skills. I still haven't even graduated HS. I knew that I had nothing to offer these women and thinking like and noble, blue pill, AFC I knew that I needed to change my life around in terms of being stable and successful. So that I would be able to have a real relationship with a women.

This lead me to join the Canadian Forces. A lot of self sacrifice and determination and I'm now serving my third year. Everything is going great in terms of income and stability. But even when I was in the forces I kept isolating myself from everyone. I wouldn't go out to bars with my friends or do anything social really.

Now on to the meat of the story: Started my winter vacation in mid Dec and came into contact this Jane again. And OMG she is a bomb shell now all grown up and I'm shaking in my boots! We went out drinking and had a good time, hit it off like old friends. Night ends and I haven't done jack shit.

Ah and date two: couple days later my bff (Chris) and her friend (Meg) all meet up for some tea. Finally able to talk which is my strength. Everything is going good we really start hitting it off and start playing footsies "Daww how cute" again lol w.e. Then my friend destroys the mood. You guessed it the old White Knight D: here is how it went.

Meg "I like to lay things out in my mind" Using her finger she starts poking at the table like bullet points tap tap tap

Me "haha I really like that, do you mind if I use that?"

Meg "Go ahead"

Chris "Don't make fun of her that's not nice" (Mood destroyed)

Me "I wasn't making fun of her man" (continued trying to save the mood.... failed)

They left but when I went to hug her goodbye she resisted my retraction and told me she wanted to see me soon. Wow ok now im really excited.

Date three New years. Me, her, friends from the bar date and this new women. House party, she is bored and wanted to go home early "me thinking sex". We really hit it off again talking the whole drive back to her car. Now this is the sad beta part that you'd all should pay attention to. I forgot to give her her present from Christmas (the present was just a set up for the bombing run) I tell her "You have to guess what is inside the bag" I give her a hint "I've been wanting to give this to you since the first time I laid eyes on you" She gives up after a while almost to long to much awkward silence. I give her the present. "Oh I love bath stuff but you really wanted to give this to me since you saw me?"

"No it's this" (Commence bombing run! Yes sir) sweeping kiss. She pulls away oh fuck oh fuck. Ends up in an awkward half kiss tongue thing.

"I thought you felt the same way towards me?"

"I like you as a friend" le :( fuck ok night ends she leaves and I am so depressed I pack all my shit up and drive 7 hours back home.

I asked myself what the hell did I do wrong? The whole ride I felt like death. At several points in the ride I broke down crying. Not because I felt like shit from her rejecting me. But because I couldn't make her happy. And that someone else wouldn't be me. I emotionally send her these following texts.

1) No hard feelings Youre an amazing person and id rather have you as a friends then not at all <3

2) (a day passes) I know you must feel awkward but really not even a response ? There has never been a time where I have been happier then when I was making you laugh and seeing you smile (sadly true) I hope you understand that. I guess I was wrong about you. I'm sorry I wasted your time. (wrong thing to say right haha fml)

3) (still nothing) Fuck that was juvenile of me to say. It's me not you that is at fault. I hope you can forgive me for being such and idiot. (still no response and haven't pushed anymore)

AFC story is done. Any thoughts or suggestions ladies and well... mostly gents?

Now I came across the r/theredpill by way of r/seduction and have been researching ever sense and by god holy hell this stuff is gold. I can't thank all of you posters enough. I've spent the rest of my vacation researching and had some marginal success. So examples for you guys. I've made two women working at my local grocery store screw up what they were doing by just using solid eye contact and tone of voice. Wow that made me feel like a boss. And today some success with a mid aged hair dresser. She was old enough to be my mom haha Here is how that went.

Smile, eye contact, good good proper tone excellent: "So what would you like?" "Can I get a 0 please" "Oh really? Everywhere?" "Yes please. As low as you can go. (said with a smooth tone) "Ok let me just oil up my trimmer so I can get as low as I can" (haha WHAT no way) chit chat yada yada finished. At the cash: Some chit chat I cant remember then she actually Kino'd me (WTF is going on?) I can't thank http://rationalmale.wordpress.com/ and theredpill community enough. This stuff is kind of dangerous :) Anymore tips would be amazing. Especially if they have to do helping me get Jane. Happy hunting.