• I always blame others,
  • I can't maintain relationships/friendships
  • Once people get to know me they want nothing to do with me
  • I hold grudges
  • I think all women are pieces of shit
  • I hate my family and my life
  • I never take accountability
  • Unadventurous
  • Defensive
  • Introspective
  • I lost all control

These are all characteristics that define me and I've been like this since I was a child. I'm losing people everyday and i'm developing a drinking problem now. I lost all control of my life and literally feel like a victim. I feel like the world is out to get me and everyone hates me from first glance, especially women (but that's ok because I hate them too).

I don't know what to do, I feel like this issue has become chronic throughout the years.