I look at people who study more than me and feel guilty af and can't get out of the bed just looking at them. When I see people not having sexual needs, I feel really guilty that I think about sex and I try to make myself like them by eating more. My friends keep telling me it's good to be depressed in order to survive in life. A lot of my depression comes from the fact that I am Indian and I hate myself. If someone doesn't say hello to me or talks rudely to me, I start hating myself and sit at home for a day or two as I feel I am really unsuccessful and the others would become successful so what's the use