Okay. So i had a bad case of oneitis at the beginning of the year with a girl whom i used to work with.

Finally started talking with this other girl which got me over the oneitis, but that was short lived (she had to go back to college).

So i decided going into monk mode was a good idea and to prioritize my life and goals first.

Only a few days into that I ended up reconnecting with my first crush. A girl I grew up with (our parents were really good friends) but then moved away when we were like 12 to the next state over.

Shes married with kids. Didnt even think much of it, few friendly messages. Then it took a sexual turn and I guess I broke frame and played into it.

She wants to meet up and fuck. I did at first, but im not sure its worth it and kinda backed off of that idea. She still thinks it will happen. She sends me multiple nudes, every single day. She wants to sext, every single day. She wants me to send her dick pics like consistently. And text pretty much all day long.

I know for a fact shes crushing on me. And i made it clear in the very beginning, dont wanna catch feelings, not looking for a relationship, not looking for drama and she seemed completely on board with that.

I literally never ever initiate any texts. Im always the one ending conversations. Its getting pretty annoying.

I feel like a girl now with some beta loser after me.. and its an akward feeling forsure.

Id like to stay friendly with her, possibly even leave the door open for sex in the future, but don't wanna carry on this weird relationship feeling.

In the beginning we were just texting eachother when we were horny, but now its an every single day thing.

Dont wanna ghost her if I dont have to. And i think by me trying to distance myself, just made her want me even more.