I'm 21yo and she's 47yo with a banging body.

I remember her stripping naked in front of me on the beach once and her tits are still engrained in my memory to this day. She's a cougar, and kinda freaky. You just know she's in to some taboo stuff and I'm sure she'd fuck me.

They broke up about 10 years ago, and are on neutral terms to this day, no contact with each other.

Now, even though they may be neutral I know this is a bad idea for the following reasons:

  1. She can use this as leverage towards my father for whatever reason, and if it ever got out, there's no positive outcome.
  2. It could damage my relationship with my father, and damage my honor.

But the thought keeps crossing my mind, is there a way to bang her with a clear conscience or should I just bang some cougars to get it out of my head?