olla to all you folks out there. I want to ask some things, but first of all I'm taking this burden off my chest.

I'm 23 five, and just until recently (1-2) years, I was in shit (blue pill). Several years before this, as I struggled to even talk with women, I suddenly started to see everything changing for me.
First, a little introduction. Since my early childhood, I didn't have any more than hi contact with girls. I always had crushes but nothing more than that. Girls never showed interest in me. Never had a girl until 17, she was 5 and I was "in love" and she dumped me after few days. Since that, I always got rejected. One time I tried to ask some girl out but she lashed out at me insulting me and then gossiping about that to other people. And the trouble grows after that. I didn't have the confidence to even talk to the women. On several occasions, I tried over the internet to ask them out but they always flaked on me.
I was always analyzing myself, terrified what other will thinks, scared to even look at women and not to mention doing actual approach. Trought my high school I was shy, reserved, honest and people teased me a lot and make fun of me. I was always putting others in front of me, people took advantage of me, girls didn't even notice that I exist. But the funny thing is that during the beginning of my late started puberty, I began to hear that I look good, that I have a nice face, body etc. and that information started to come from everybody (friends, cousins, family, neighbours, other people) but still I highly thought that I wasn't attractive. I never get what I desired and always somebody els got in front of me. To that point, I always thought that girls are innocent sweet beings and every time they burned me and left me out in the cold

.But suddenly two years ago I started to be more serious about my faculty. I finished my exams with good grades, I started doing activities and hobbies that I like. I dressed in the sense that I liked. People were still talking behind my back but I didn't hear them for the first time. I finished my studies, started working what I like and look and dress even better. Suddenly I was doing the things I like only, I'm not compensating for what I really want, and I don't fucking care what other people think about me.

Strangest thing started happening before a year ago. Everywhere I go I started catching women literally stare at me. teenagers, Younger ones, girls in their 20s, milfs, matures, grannies...They touch them self over neck, face when I'm in front of them. Cashiers, waitresses, sale girls, housewives, office girls now start to talk with me like they want to jump all over me like an animal, it just what I feel and see tell me I'm wrong??!!! They start to touch themselfs to intimate parts (this happened recently at the bar). Suddenly I hear it from people or friends that one or another girl "want to see me (?!)". And I didn't even show minimal attention? What's happening I'm I imagining? Everywhere I go people and women want to do me favors?One day I was at the cafe and drinking my coffee alone and over the near table there were two women (30s) with one of them had to kid. At one moment I noticed that the women with the kid is staring at me while talking to its friend?? Wtf? I'm I going crazy?When I walk past by, younger ones (as I can recall teenagers and younger girls) bite their lip? I saw that couple of times, pls tell me that I'm imagining?When I'm in presence of another male, and if there is women or girl with us, they start attacking and insulting that male, and with me they are with a wide smile and polite? Wtf is that why are women always insulting another male when I'm around?

I'm just telling the facts and that's what's happening around me. I'm I going crazy what happened?!!