I am 23, virgin. I have kissed only 1 girl(couple of times, same day, about 2 months ago) . All my life i have not had much interaction with females. I have never had a girlfriend. Only 1 actual date. Exchanged nudes 1 time with a girl from another country. Had a couple of female friends(real life and over the internet). That's pretty much all the girls i have interacted with in my life. I am a little above average looking(maybe somewhere around 6-7), 181 cm, about 80 kilos. I am not fit but my body is still okay. I have dirty blonde hair, blue eyes, fair skin. When i jokingly would tell people that i'm a virgin they all would laugh and say that's impossible, or that i made a good joke. So my lack of interaction with women is not because of my looks, but because of my mental state.

All my life i felt somehow intimidated by girls. Because of that i never really chased women. During high school i never hit on girls but i would be around them. In university i even started not to hang around them. This also happened with guys. I would not make new friends, and even pushed my old ones away. I used to believe i was special and that i didn't have luck with women because they were mainstream. But i would put on a piedestal every woman i came in contact with. This came to an end a little more than a year ago, when a girl from another country i had been talking to, lied to me, making me believe she was busy studying all the time so she couldn't talk to me, while she used other social media accounts where she put photos of her going out and stuff. When i messaged her there she blocked me. Then i became very depressed. I started watching cuckold porn and try to imagine myself as the bull to help me feel better. After 6 months of a nihilist lifestyle, i started to forget about her and actually redpill myself about women, reading articles and forums on the internet and watching PUAs make women cheat on their bfs(i also discovered this place). Even though i consider myself to be redpilled about women i still haven't made any changes in my life. At first i didn't even have the desire to aproach women. But now that i do i still haven't aproached any. I downloaded Tinder and got a couple of matches, but they would either unmatch me when i texted them or just not respond. I live in a not very big city in a Balkan country, and going to clubs to pick up girls is not a thing even though there are clubs.

Now i want to start improving myself. I want to be good with the ladies, and have an active sexual life. This is my goal. And i need every piece of advice that can help me change my frame. I have to change all my beliefs about women, that i have gathered from my family, religion and bluepill movies, and i need your help to do it. I am starting from scratch so advice me on everything from start to finish.