Brief background: Standard beta 'nice guy' behaviour in early life, slow awakening through trial and error to figure out many of the concepts that I would later read espoused in TRP.

This question may not be relevant to the younger guys here in their 20's, for whom vagina is the be-all-end-all of life, given it's novelty factor.

As I became increasingly successful with women, through applying game, I suddenly noticed that my interest in women plummeted. I became very proficient at online dating, easily getting sex almost whenever I wanted it. Through this process however, the value of vagina became completely deflated. I began to understand how females must feel going about their life, knowing they could have sex any time they liked, reducing the value of males for sexual purposes. Likewise, through the recognition of the nature of romantic and sexual relationships, it's become nearly impossible to experience that exciting thrill of 'love'. You may scoff, but without that thrill of love, combined with the loss of thrill over vagina, what is left for a woman to offer a man?

I'm curious to hear whether others have experienced this effect. I've honestly attempted to deprogram myself and return to blue pill simply because it's more exciting. Raising a female on a pedestal as a difficult-to-obtain object of adoration, chasing her as she plays games, feeling the full range of human emotion as I stumblingly pursue, the triumph if I succeed in the end, the agony if I suffer defeat or loss. I can't of course, truths can't be unlearned, this is simply something I've begun to wonder about. I think TRP is great if you're in your 20's desperate for sex, and struggling to obtain it. I'm not sure whether it's playing with fire however, you may find yourself like me, essentially guaranteed a very emotionally-safe but rather dull existence without being able to find any enjoyment in females. They say the journey is what matters, not the destination, but I think following TRP ideology is a bit like taking the short-cut, arriving at the destination, but once there, not being able to fully appreciate or enjoy it, because it was too easy to arrive at. I think back to the struggles in my youth to obtain female attention or touch, and it was challenging, it was very hard on my emotional well-being, but it was also motivating and exciting and full of a cascade of interesting emotional experiences, and to obtain the female in the end was a great feeling of satisfaction, like I earned this, I could fully enjoy it. Now it's the same mundane experience, going to McDonalds and getting a burger with fries, spit some predictable game, manipulate a female's mind and heart, get boring sex, toss her aside because why would I value a girl I only obtained through manipulation. Is TRP really just ultimate weakness? Being afraid to be a man, a man who pursues what he wants, goes out into the world, sees a female he wants, and goes for her, suffers humiliation, rejection, emotional pain, but isn't deterred, he knows what he wants and he will have it, or suffer trying to obtain it. Is TRP simply being a weak feminine creature in the end? Playing it safe with emotions, using female tactics to acquire results?