Hello everyone.

I know you must be tired of people asking obvious question, and that most people give the same answers on every post but it is really important for each man on his RP journey to feel like he has made some progress and that someone has been what he has been through. This is that kind of post with asking for advice at the end. If you dont like it, think of me as a pussy or someone who didnt read the sidebar in detail just skip it.

Before the story starts sorry for my english. I am from Eastern Europe.

Been here for less then a 1 year now. Found TRP on a reddit that deals with no contact after break up (i dont remember the exact name)...Last year I went crazy for a BDP plate from work that left me for another guy and later harrased me (by this I am not exaggerating, I had to delete insta and fb profile and change a number to avoid her and change a job to avoid seeing her everyday). This bad episode of my 25 year life went on for 6 months. Got me into a spiral of anxiety and depression. Almost didnt finish my masters degree in chem engineering and almost lost a job.

I decided that I dont want to live like this anymore. Went to a therapist and started therapy. Started lifting. Finished masters degree. Changed a job. Got a gf. Got a few plates on the side. All the time reading and trying to implement TRP philosophy as best as I know (my whole surrounding is beta).

Some 4 months have passed since I have acquired a GF. I wanted to be exclusive at first but knowing myself, I am afraid of Oneitis (my whole life I have been in relationships of 1-2 years like a true pussy beta) so I got some plates on the side. I have a feeling I actually did this to get validation from other girls (probably still beta deep inside). Now I am on a business trip on other continent.

Lets get into some detail of my question.

I talk with my GF several times per day. Every time she says something which I dissagre with or dont approve of I get anxious/angry. Like I care. But reading to what guys post here, I see that the goal is to not care even if LTR of 4 years nexts you in a second since we apply abundance mentality. But even though I am trying hard to implement this, I still feel the 25 beta way of life (my father is a beta 99%) still has a tool on me.

I need advice. How to stop caring if my relationship ends and if some day GF cheats on me? How to kill last beta parts of my personality.

Again sorry if I have bad spelling or bad structure of the text, english is not my native tongue.