Little back story: I am a college freshman of 19 years. I live in the Middle East so the hook up culture isn’t so rampant and most of the population, in my view, genuinely preserve themselves until marriage and all. Of course there are those who don’t, who are my target I guess. Does that change anything in your eyes? I always attempted to be the nice guy, when I was an asshole - accidentally- I use to feel bad about it. I always got girl attention when I was a kid (up until grade 10) when I think about it it’s probably cause I was a funny asshole who genuinely didn’t care. I changed later and started to care what people think and became nice and just beta material. Later I started to lift and currently I get a lot of compliments on my body and all. I read PUA stuff before, girl chase.com , the game and all and I did pull of some hookups with these methods. Buts it’s like my natural wiring is to be nice and gentle and funny and putting others comfort instead of my own. It truly comes naturally my own mother says it’s a disadvantage. So when I did pull off the hookups due to the techniques it was kind of against my natural wiring and when they did work I always felt that if this works for every girl I get with or have a relationship with then "love" to me will be just well preformed game. Interest shown in me would be because I held frame and all that and thus I stopped reading the material, and now here I am returning to beta material and having a chick I really like ( who isn’t even a 7 but has a charming personality) not see me as sexual material. So problem

Problem number 1 : if I perfect game and get really good will I ever find true love that just happened rather than a relationship I exerted good game to get into?

Now I’m back to reading and I’m going over the recommended readings and I feel like the first step to mastery is to genuinely feel that women are beneath us - or at least dependent on us, men- and I’m not comfortable with that thought. I don’t want to genuinely think that. I want to think that we should be dominant and steadfast and know what to do because we are men and that’s what our evolution entitled us for and we exert this dominance and get appreciated for it because it’s a sign of being a healthy confident man. I don’t want to think we exert dominance and all because women are subordinate. Number 2: I don’t feel, nor want to feel, that women are inferior rather I want to feel that we are dominant and independent

Do you get what I’m trying to say? I 1000% believe in TRP but I don’t want to believe that women are subordinate nor do I want to be so accustomed to it that love or relations would be a game that I played well. I need your advice and insight.

(I am aware of rule zero, and I’m not breaking it I’m just looking for another perspective to get a better look)