The reality is simple. My suffering was from being the submissive beta, from weakness, from limited sexual options, from limited friendships, from insecurities.

Once I get back from my trip I will be making serious changes. Get back into lifting seriously (SS or SL once again) and proper diet. Crushing the next few months at work is of great importance as I may be becoming team leader soon (yikes, no position for a beta!).

Also I'm setting up a few online dating accounts to get some plates.

Thanks guys.