I’m heartbroken as f*ck right now but I know I made the right decision. I’m mourning the relationship I wanted, not the one I actually had. As soon as I broke up with him he was on his best behaviour, saying he knew it wouldn’t change the outcome but he wants to give it a try.

Surprise surprise, he disappointed me again yesterday. He let one moment of stress between us while I was driving us to run an errand ruin the entire day. The dude couldn’t even pretend to be a good guy for a week.

Unfortunately will be living with my lvm x for another month while he finds a new place but I’m ready to finally be free of the years of pain and disappointment he caused. I saw a comment on one of these threads that said something to the effect of “when is the last time you’ve been begged over and over to be a better partner to the one you supposedly love?” The answer was never. If you asked my x the same thing… every few months in our 4 year relationship. Literally way too f*cking long.

It was extremely eye opening to the fact that even if he did “change” I don’t need the baggage. I have a doggo that gives me all the unconditional love I need. He kisses me when I cry, and cuddles me when I’m anxious. And best of all, he doesn’t put me through years of emotional neglect and drama. Thank you to this sub for changing my life immeasurably over the last few weeks.