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I am 16, half-Hispanic, and have autism, OCD, and ADHD, I can’t help but feel extreme thoughts about femicide and bothering women ever since I read about feminism and the red pill.

I can’t help but feel confused and angry about everything in my life, so I feel like blaming women and bothering them or killing them because I have trouble understanding them and feel confused.

I want to tell my therapist and eventually my social worker I want to kill women and yell at them and I feel it’s a pain trying to hold in my thoughts anymore, it’s like trying to hold in my feelings and emotions.

I am crying wishing that this would go away but it won’t, I feel confused and afraid about everything, I feel like women are the enemy or something.

I feel like a bad person and I was born a awful person, I wish I could end my life with a shotgun, I’m so confused and angry, I feel like a monster.

I feel socially isolated and vulnerable, I don’t know what to do anymore, I feel like a danger to every woman in my life including my mother who is a nurse and makes more money than my Dad and my cousin Daliana in Mexico who loves me very much.

Should I tell my therapist who is a woman about this or am I going to get mocked or laughed at? I’m scared, someone please help before I do something really awful.