*Second post, sorry if the formatting is out of whack.

Having found RedPill nearly a year ago, i've turned my whole life around and i have to thank each and every one of you for that. Maybe i'll submit a post on my journey & what i've learnt later but i'll keep it short and to the point now.

I've come to you all with a situation where i'm unsure if my inner Bluepill is shining through or if my perspective is justified. I'll try to keep it short

I was going through a lot of one night stands, averaging 2 - 3 week for a good 6 months. I went absolutely nuts, and to say the least i enjoyed the variety of a different broads throughout that time. I definitely felt good and my confidence was great because no one ever showed me value and i finally found it after a lot of work (gymming, pua & the usual shit).

Once i started to love myself my mindset changed a lot, i found one night stands fun, but empty. I didn't give a shit about them, and they didn't give a shit either. Their sex wasn't adding any value to me at all, i started to buy in to my traditional family's fairytale -> concentrate on career / look for unicorns. It was in this phase when i met a cute girl in my course. Stats: 25 yrs , half egyptian / australian 2 previous partners -> y'all going to tell me she's lying, i'm fairly certain its correct.

  • First partner. Ex - fiance. From given descriptions was my kind of guy, but cheated on her because she wasn't giving it up. Fucked around on the side with aboriginal chicks (lol) but she found out a week before the marriage and they split up.

  • Second partner (Rebound) Backpacker fellow from good old Scotland. She fucked him for 6 months despite the fact that she knew he wasn't LTR.

Long story short, we're in a LTR and i'm confused. I don't have any issues apart from the occasional shit test. My frame has kept her in check and she's acting like the good redpill girl i want her to be. But through her i've learnt something about myself which i need you guys to give me some advice on.

I've realised that my ability to emotionally bond or actually give a shit about a girl stems from whether she is mine 'completely'. Issue with this girl is, even though she is busting to pleasure me all the time, I honestly don't give a fuck about her. In my eyes she's been another mans cumdumpster, a sad used product which someone else got for free and thats where my bond stops. I'll never invest myself (time, exclusivity, emotion, etc) in another man's cumdumpster. Additionally, I've realised that i would never want my sons to be delivered anywhere near a vagina which has been slammed by another man.

So i'm stuck in a tight spot with both this a) girl and b) my future dealings.

a) Obviously dumping her would be the way to go. I find her past rebound behaviour disgusting. Would feel bad breaking her heart, but i just can't handle being cuckolded by a skinny backpacker for 6 months, i'm leagues above that shit. She's been showing signs of clinginess and attachment. She is loyal and i really couldn't ask much more from a woman. Its a shit situation. If the consensus is to dump her should it be: sit down & final goodbyes, OR pump her and wait for her to move. (she's moving to another state at the end of the year)

b) I realise that i'll never even consider a non-virgin for LTR in the future, and i find one night stands empty. Is there any alternatives. Right now i'm leaning towards Monk Mode for the following reasons: - Don't want to waste time on woman - Focus on career progression - Focus on developing my frame - Focus on self improvement - Scope around for possible virgins / LTR who i would actually give some shit about

Any reflections, advice or thoughts would be appreciated. Sorry for the formatting if it's fucked. There wasn't a template for AskTRP.