Lately I've been going through shitty times in my life. Dislocated my knee, putting on weight, and just generally accomplishing nothing. I had a job, but I quit because the stress was making me go insane. I can't find anything else. It's making me irritable and filling me with hatred for so many things. But the biggest thing that concerns me is that I'm starting to despise women. I know it's fucked up, and wrong, but I just can't help but feel angry about them.

I've just turned 18, and I've never kissed a girl. Hell, I've never even gotten close. All the women in my highschool classes don't like me, not totally sure why. They constantly talk shit about me and when they acknowledge me its only to mock me. And to make matters worse, every time I see some feminist bitch trying to destroy society, a woman driving like a complete retard (probably on her cellphone), a woman acting like a dumb bimbo, a woman obsessing over some inbred hick and his retarded truck (I live in the country, so its a big thing for men with small dicks to jack off about their trucks) or read stories online about women ruining their boyfriends/husbands lives my resentment grows.

On top of that, the people who are supposedly my friends treat me like dogshit. They insult me, and make me feel like shit constantly. I tell them this often but they just don't listen. I can't do anything about it since I'm what you guys would probably call "beta as fuck".

I'm short, shy, weak and fat. I suffer from clinical depression and anxiety, which I take medication for, but it doesn't seem to be working. Despite being 18 now I still can't grow any facial hair. I'm babyfaced as fuck. I have no motivation to exercise - I know I should, but I just never get around to it - or to do anything besides shitpost on 4chan and reddit. My only escape from this hell is weed.

Sorry if this is kind of off-topic or whiny, I needed somewhere to vent. I need help, and I'm hoping someone here can give that to me.