Something unusual happened yesterday.

I brought LTR over yesterday night after spending the afternoon together. However it was one of those days where my downstairs couldn't last (I'm usually good, had a long day). She'll ride me, I'll last a minute then lose strength. We repeat a few times, same result. Eventually she got tired and wanted to nap before she left to hers. I was tired so obliged. She was frustrated.

When we woke an hour later, she'll tell me how sorry she was as she pressured me to 'get hard'. I ignore and hug her, she wants to cuddle a bit more.

I didn't want her to see me as a chump. Luckily my downstairs had awoken, and I massage, kiss and make her aroused. We usually f- with our eyes open but she decided to close her eyes this time, and said some crazy naughty things.

It felt rapey and like an affair - I was saying 'I'm just massaging you, one thing led to another, etc' the things a Chad would say to a cheating girl to get her to cheat. Except I was seeing her regularly. She loved it.

After sex, she grabs her bra and panties and rests on the bed. She ALWAYS lies naked after sex - this was the first time she lay clothed. I can't help but feel like this was ASD/guilt.

She was more distant after, I can tell she wasn't as comfortable speaking to me. Plus mentioned I look like how I first met her (I suppose it was the fresh feelz?).

It's my fault for taking it to that direction in terms of the role play, I just wanted to give her a good f- but I feel it nuked her a bit. I literally gave her the feeling of cheating, but with me against me.

I'm worried I've planted the seed/feelz of cheating unintentionally and worried if I jeopardized myself.

tl;dr - Didn't last with regular, came back with an alter ego, felt like it had an affair twist, girl feels guilt, acts normally the day after.