Please hear me out.

I'm 23.all my life I've had problems with girls. I used to be able to hold conversations with anybody. I struggled with shyness and social anxiety especially in my teen years. It's never been extreme but it's affected me.

I started to see girls and boys date around ninth grade. I wasn't worried but I was kinda jealous. I used to see guys getting so many girls in high school with ease. I liked a couple girls but didn't really talk to any. I have always been too anxious and timid. All my close friends are guys and I've never really formed a close relationship with a girl. Up until recently i had always fallen into the same traps. Become too clingy or think every girl who says hi likes me.. Or put my eggs into one basket etc..

Now onto my experiences. Around 18 is where I started changing. I became a bit more social especially since I just got a cell phone. I got my first number. I met a classmate when I was 20 and we really clicked. I liked her, she rejected me but wanted to be friends. I was fine with that. She eventually betrayed me and ratted me out because I said something bad to her. I got suspended from school.

I began to talk to other girls,mostly using apps like Tinder. It's then I began to realize how fucked up a lot of women are,even in real life. So many of them are superficial, flaky, fake and conniving. They'll smile at you once then talk shit behind your back. The most evil people I've met were girls during school. Pure selfishness and jealously that they'll ruin others lives and turn others against them.

Social Media is the worst. Most girls now think they're 10/10 because they'll automatically get 100 likes on Instagram and thirsty comments from whitw Knights or 1000 tinder matches. I have had girls drop interest because my social media wasn't perky enough.

I met and dated a couple girls. It went bad kinda. It ended because they basically lost interest. I didn't get it. I'm genuinely a nice guy,not a fake neckbeard one. I like actual conversations, truthful people and intelligence. This is what these girls said they loved. Then I got hit with the bullshit "I don't know how I feel, but I need time" text.

I get it. I was inexperienced and a bit too nice. But those experiences combined with my mild shyness made me cynical. However I believe women have a lot to do with it. Everywhere I look, people I talk too etx I hear or see the same stories. Girls have incredibly high standards from their inflates egos and expect so much. They drop good guys to go get used as a cumrag from another guy because he has money. They then cry when things go south.

I've been burned by women. Now I am kinda desensitized to it even though I haven't had extensive experience as others. I just don't see a point. I am not ugly. I am not socially awkward. I'm not a player and I don't really partake in all those typical guy hobbies girls love to hate. I just truly desire a relationship. Girls have never given me a chance for some of the following reasons: being a virgin, not having a car, still being in college, "too boring" etc.

Example. I was talking to a girl from online. We texted and called got pretty close in a month. Yet she kept hesitating to meet up. She said that she wasn't interested in dating and she was pretty depressed and messed up. I was the only one she told that she had attempted suicide. We stop talking and a few months later I find out she's dating some guy (she said she never would). I didn't really care, but she told me about her problems again and how it got worse with this guy. I can imagine that this guy was anywhere as close to her as I was. I ignored her but it felt good knowing that she was doing bad without me.

It may all seem confusing, i know but I'm just ranting a bit. Modern day women are truly foul to deal with. I would like some advice on how to proceed with my life in terms of women because I just feel like giving up.