For the past two weeks I've been in "Monk mode": Reading RP books, not caring much about what people think, I started lifting at the gym, etc.

However, yesterday I had a party and drank a lot of alcohol. In that moment I felt like I recovered my BP skin and it led me to feel instant rejection from women, making it impossible to approach even one. When I got home I watched porn and "relapsed" (I haven't done since I've been in Monk Mode.)

So the question is: Is alcohol a buffer? Or is it just my previous experiences taking control of myself?

Thanks a lot.