Hi guys. I am 27, fairly good looking, was always bad with girls. Always had one-itis as far as I can remember. Most of my gfs that dumped me married someone else. All the super hot ones always go for the other guy and not for me, you know, the 9's and 10's with super low cut dresses. I am a Beta red-pill aware man. I have swallowed the red pill maybe 3 months ago. My perspective is changing fast on girls, but its so hard not to get sucked into their vortex. I just cant stop staring. I also gave up porn and masturbating with the red pill, as I feel that porn drains my sexual energy. This allows me to be energized and to channel it. But..

My question is, can i actually become alpha? Naturally? I don't mean to give off alpha tells and act alpha, which I can mimic the behavior but I don't want to. I can easily pull 6's and 7's but the 8's and above overwhelm me with their beauty and lust and I give in to the Beta mindset. I used to be a Beta-orbiter and Beta-in-waiting. Don't do that anymore. I am very red pill aware now and catch myself giving Beta tells and stop myself. And I keep sensing the beta-ness in me.. Is it possible for me to become alpha naturally? Or am I doomed as a red-pill aware beta forever? Also is it ok to remain a Beta and just spin plates that have hit the epiphany phase, because thats totally do-able. But I want the 21-25 year olds that are in their fucking prime, they just look so fucking good.