Since I was young I was great with women. I got really good and have studied game at a young age. I swear I would get almost any woman I wanted. Then have them all hooked. I never been cheated on. I thought I was the fucking guy. My frame was that I was the guy. That all women wanted. They all came back even if I left them. Or even if they left me. They came back. I was chad. And still feel I am.

The problem is I am no longer so naïve I swallowed the pill and had seen all the things I need to see to believe it all. The problem is my ego has been so enlarged over years of women validation. Throwing themselves at me. Being naive to hypergamy and all the other truths.

That now I see I'm no different than anyone else. I'm having a very hard time accepting this. Especially with women I am messing with. Before the red pill I would swear it was me they were messing with and only me. And though it probably want true I was to naive to believe otherwise so I didn't care. Or it didn't even dawn on me.

Now I know what I know and see hints of it even with the women I'm with. "Saying I'm the only guy their with then seeing signs of flirting with other guys, hanging out "as friends" (I'm sure). And I'm having a hard time accepting it. My ego is getting all sorts of fucked up and I'm going insane. I feel heartbreak or some shit. In a way that I don't own these women's souls like I previously thought I did.

It was almost better to have that stupid ignorant naive frame. Now it's too late. I know what I know and I lost that frame and it's fucking me all up.

How do I accept this. Get over it. Stop feeling jealous. Etc etc ?