... things seem off.

When I first met my girlfriend, it was amazing, she came up and said hi to me, and we exchanged contact information, then we met up. She looked hot.

Her personality was what I was looking for - bubbly, energetic, and sexually open.

We banged the first day we met.

We continued on a pattern of fucking every time we would meet up until she brought up the "where is this going" conversation about 7 months into it.

I said you should be my girlfriend.

After 2 weeks of BF - GF, she tells me that her Ex-Boyfriend showed up to her work, and that they went to a pond near her work and hung out there, then he drove her home.

Im torn up

  • She told me what she did (probably trickle truth)

  • She hung out with her ex boyfriend.

Maybe I should have dumped her right there. I told her to leave and didnt speak to her for bout a week, let her slowly come back.

Over time, I heard from friends that she would have open conversations while she was among the presence of guys, and basically reliving all her whore (war) stories.

Im torn again

  • Part of me doesnt care if she talks about being slutty as long as she is my slut

  • She is craving for sexual attention, then acts dumb when I bring this up to her.

Now lately, I've just been feeling disconnected from her. I feel this exactly:

I love her, but dont want to be with her. I accept her as a human being, but want to push her away.

Can anyone out there help me understand what Im saying?

Miscellaneous Info:

  • She;s done a threesome with 2 guys.

  • Shes done a foursome with 2 guys

  • She is a night club girl (we met at school, not in a club)

  • She tells me "she got tired of just being fucked and left and being used for sex"

  • I get whatever sex I want when I want

  • Even though we are in a LTR, she will post on snapchat pictures of her naked legs covered in water while she is sitting in the bath tub.

Wow, writing this makes me sick. I'm gonna go lift, then get drunk, hopefully someone out there can help this young buck learn a thing or two about women.

P.S. - I've read all the refereced readings in the main side bar, plus the hand book twice.

Edit: She wants to take me on a cross country vacation trip. So, whats that mean?